Roses and Thorns
“a book” by Vale, hold up, life is too short, Roses and Thorns a collection of philosophical thoughts and manifestos for the new world by Valerie Jana.
Forward: To all Women, of all walks of life. Who are full of breath and breathless, the ones creating and the ones ready to hear it, see it, listen to it. Ones who are nurturing and being nurtured. The independent and dependent. The lost and the found. The curious and steadfast. The ones ready to change the world, and the ones ready to change themselves.
This book is for you.
Roses and Thorns is a book about the best part of our days and the worst part of our days.
Our most majestic securities and greatest insecurities.
The true embodiment of friendship and sisterhood, to the ego’s rogue ways of seeking the violence, hatred, and comparison between one another.
The true compassion and honesty, and the blame and shame,
The ones who try their very hardest each and every day, and are still not where they want to be,
And the ones who have it all, and don’t know how they got there, or why.
This book is for you.
Roses and thorns is a collection of passages, portals and blips of ideas into the mind as we sink our souls deeper and deeper into the heart.
Roses and thorns is a story. As a designer, writer, visionary and storyteller, we are meant to tell stories, to relate, to teach and to learn from one another experiences, research, ideas, thoughts and channeling, to move into a greater space for grace where the infinite exists.
It’s a time to reflect, and a time to set intent.
What is your intention? In this ceremony we call life.
Is it to take action or resist? Is it to receive or believe? A lil bit of both?
We can be all of it, and none of it.
But let me ask you…
What comes from in here, and not out there?
What comes from your soul, and not a story that was fed to you without inquiring for it.
The world is so filled out there, but are you filled in here. Within. Is your mind at capacity, and there’s no where else to go, ah but there is one place, now that you mention it.
There’s the heart.
The heart of the truth.
The heart of your body.
The heart of your soul.
The heart of it all.
Step out of karma and into your dharma they say.
But I’m still here, and I need to be there, in order to be my truest embodiment.
But won’t you get there once you begin to embody, who you are here?
I’m going to challenge us all, with a test,
A test of the heart.Before I went on a heart journey with my sister, we were told by our paternal side, well you’re either going to make it, or break it. And we did both. Hard. We made it, and we broke it, we broke all the reasons we thought we were going, all the people we thought we were going for, and our hearts opened so wide, we entered a state of pure bliss, creativity, rest, initiation, and initiratrix creatrix mode. We became the ones we were seeking to be, and allowed the mystery of it all, all the things we held up on a pedestal to fall to the ground. Because it wasn’t the highest mentors, or the most luxurious destination that brought us joy, adventure, expansion, and bliss. It was heart-centered connections, it was the rain pouring down on the roads to our next destination, the full moon shining its light over state lines guiding us down the paths of highways, the winds of change that changed directions of why we were there in the first place, the fire and passion of our souls that ignited and brought us to a place of pure passion for who we were and what we wanted to do with our lives while on this earth. Or more accurately, what we wanted to do for the Earth and the people who walk it, including plants animals and the unseen worlds, that want to be seen.
So before I lose you,
If you’re not already lost enough,
Don’t worry any longer, because the sooner we strip away what we’re not,
We become what we are.
Which brings me to why I originally opened up my laptop.
I believe we fear our TRUE inner power, our true powers of Creatrixes (in conjunct, alongside creators), and our self-expression, the muse inside and outside of us, because if we revealed how powerful we really are, we would expose our truths.
Our truths of who we are.
Our truths of our highest potential
Our highest selves
The ones we’ve been warned of
From goddesses, stories, queens of the past,
Who may have felt threatened as she stood in her power, but did it anyways,
We may fear our own true self so much, our creativity, our original thoughts, ideas, perspectives, opinions, ideal world, ideal day, ideal way of doing things,…
Because it's just too powerful.
Its to true. It would work, and we might fear that change, because we know the masculine might react, fear, retract as we protract, and end up sending us lightyears back.
I’m not saying this is the truth, but it could be.
I’m not saying this is what my one and only belief is, because I honestly can’t keep up with my beliefs and visions anymore, every day something new comes through me, but this is what’s coming through onto this page.
Because as I draw geometric lines with my ruler and pencil coloring in the top left corner with red, preparing for a color theory weekend workshop, sipping on Earth Elements’ ceremonial grade cacao, I had a vision, (as per usual),
Me with a past lover,
Them feeling into my energy,
If I were to share this drawing later on my social media,
And them either not understanding me, yet still intrigued by me,
Or, the opposite. Them so beyond curious, how my mind things, who I am, and what I’ve always been able to create. Because if I’m not with them right now, and I’m not creating babies, yes I went there, I must be doing something else with this energy in this moment, right?
I must be creating, other new life, new worlds. Worlds within worlds within worlds.
Coexisting and yet so far a part.
Would they fear my creative side?
Do they all fear my creative side?
Does it make them uncomfortable? Turn them on? Feel numb and nothing.
Do others that don’t see me attractively, feel inspired, comforted, and full of life? To create their own means? Is this the ultimate butterfly effect?
Seeing the unseen, bringing it into the seen, sharing it, and inviting others to do the same.
Roses and thorns.
What are you here to teach?
As I flower pressed for the first time today, dried flowers from by recent birthday, my newly natal Saturn return in pisces as a pisces. Putting heavy weight books down
Placing the dried roses between pages of a journal I failed to fill up on a recent trip to Belize on the water, in the jungle, visiting temples of ancient chocolate kings and visiting farms where this plant medicine comes from.
What are you here to learn?
Do you focus more on the roses of life or the thorns?
The things that go well versus the things that do not.
The moments you succeed and the moments you drop out.
The choices you make in your words,
Owning up when you need to apologize,
Choosing love over fear,
What’s it going to be?
Because every choice we make sometimes feels like a massive weight.
We know that, even through the micro day to day small scale choices we make, they will determine how we respond to bigger questions and choices about our own life path.
If I start learning how to say yes to this,
To things I’m uncomfortable with,
To sharing my voice,
My story
My writing
My art,
My opinions, my perspective,
If I start saying yes to me,
The beauty of life,
The beauty of give and receive,
The beauty of using honesty for good
To put myself first, my sacred chakras first, my dreams first,
If I get so comfortable doing these small things,
Can my soul survive in this world?
Woah.
That is a breakthrough moment,
CAN MY SOUL SURVIVE IN THIS WORLD?
Will I be caught,
Will I win,
Will I be safe,
Will I have control,
Will I be supported,
Will I find love and beauty
Or danger and fear
Will I be okay,
Or will I break
Will I make it
Or will I break it.