Creativity is an inside job
So many times we want to fill the space and gap of excuses and reasons to get out into the world. But It would be nice to learn from others, but it would be nice to drive to that coffee shop. When in reality, we have all these resources already at our fingertips. We have the sewing machines, we have the coffee grinds in the freezer. I don’t know all the answers, or the truths to life. But I do know how to witness my own. My own anxiety when I try to seek out there. When I can find myself here. When I follow feelings, how I feel when I’m about to do something. There is an abundance of tools and resources around us to become what we need to become, for our own sakes. It’s usually the thing collecting dust in the corner of our room, and looking at it everyday is not enough. We need to interact with it. Show up to it. Give it our best shot. This is part of the journey of the New Earth CREATRIXES. It’s our duty to define ourselves for the world, not let the world define us. If you feel more powerful making your own coffee, using your own CREATRIX tools at your own desk, with your own music, EVEN when the sun is out (all the better), and you could be at location ABC. Just pause, breathe, and think, and believe, that you are everything you need.
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Time to
Review portfolio from 2021
Revisit a few key phrases for human design manifesto
Throw all selfish guilt out the window and invite all selfless feelings in
Invite in spirit.
I am open to the belief that I am capable
I am open to the belief that I am doing exactly what I need to with my time. That everything that is no longer in my life is indeed for the better of my soul. That although this journey feels long and lonely, its also super short and super magical full of friends. If I just stay present enough to see the souls that choose to be around me, I will be damn reassured that I am doing just fine, I am okay, I am great, I am growing and I matter. My voice matters in this world. I don’t need to feel guilty for not being at NY Climate week to care about mother earth. I don’t need to be made to feel like a bad person for not contributing to the conversation or Iranian women fighting for their divine sovereignty, because I am learning from others as it happens. I am witnessing it, and I am silently cheering them on in 16 dimensions above and below to #keepgoing. I can evolve and change like the wind. I invite everyone who has none of my good interests to fall away. Anyone tha
t’s ever wished me ill will or talked about me in a negative way, to see themselves to the door, to unfollow, to move on and move along. I call forward everyone ready to follow the patterns ebbs and flows of the new earth and channeling, the beauty between the lines, the new earth we are weaving, and creating, beyond all societal constructs and material world, also known as mundane, to come along for the ride. To witness my late blooming, and their own late blooming, with compassion, strengths and weaknesses. You think this is going to be easy? IT can if you want it to be. Is change really inevitable, fuck ya it is, change is the only constant. Cheers to that, because life’s predictability is even better than our own predictability. Don’t let yourself be predictable to yourself. You won’t make it. You will keep waking up every day and doing things for others. For thinking you’re doing the right things for yourself, and leaving yourself dull, stale, unused potential. EXCEED YOUR POTENTIAL, STEP INTO IT. WIDE OPEN DOORS, WINGS, INVITE IT ALL IN. Surprise yourself, allow yourself to feel the change dying on the inside to come out. You don’t need to learn more, get another certificate, school education, for the validation, you can if you want to, but really, just start feeling into your soul. That thing. Yes, deep down there. You can usually feel It right in your throat chakra. When you’re about to express It. You can feel it in your heart, when things that are not logical, want your attention. You can feel It in your solar/ lunar plexus during your highest highs and lowest lows. And how It takes care of you in the ways you most need in those moments. The thing that holds you when you have to mother yourself, over and over and over again. Hold you in your most vulnerable. Your soul shines up and out in your sacral, that’s your creatrix initiatrix center. Your soul feels like home in your root. And back around it flies 6 feet below and 6 feet above you, reaching around to your crown, your choice to feel like it or not, but it’s there, and bites you on your third eye, when you have to awaken that intuition the most. Spirit.
And that’s why creativity is an inside job.
Just like happiness.
Just like your dreams.
Imagine how you want to feel walking in this world.
Imagine how you want to feel every day.
Imagine what it feels like, to feel fully you, to everybody you meet, to yourself.
Allow yourself to feel, like the CREATRIX you are.
To be continued… or not, but thank yourself. For you are the divine answer you’ve been looking for.